I am not a mechanism, an assembly of various sections.

And it is not because the mechanism is working wrongly

that I am ill.

I am ill because of wounds to the soul,

to the deep emotional self

and the wounds to the soul take a long, long time,

only time can help and patience,

and a certain difficult repentance

long difficult repentance, realization of life's mistake,

and the freeing oneself 

from the endless repetition of the mistake

which mankind at large has chosen to sanctify.

--- D.H. Lawrence

I think I'm about to free myself from some of this endless repetition! Another turning point.